Archive for October, 2006

PASS ANOTHER DRAFT BY NOVEMBER??!!! I’m dead.

Thursday, October 26th, 2006

"Oh next Wednesday is the day of the students’ brains.  Ya November 1, the day of the dead."

It was an amusing hirit, rubbing elbows with the cubicle neighbor, feeling peer of the IR god moment until I remember that I was and technically still am a Dr. Robles student.  Heeeeyyy that’s so not funny.  Partly true, but still.  And perhaps he realises it too, following it up with another classic hirit–

"I’m allergic to undergrads.  And I think the feeling is mutual."

how i write is how i think is how i feel

Wednesday, October 25th, 2006

ang hina ko ngayon.  i know kagagaling ko lang sa sakit, which was so bad that it lasted almost a week.  for someone who doesn’t get sick, that’s acute-level near-death experience to the max.  but i’m supposed to have fully recovered.  went to wushu already last friday and to weekend ballet rehearsals, although major ingat at alalay na baka mabinat.  had the whole monday off and got to rest again.  and then come tuesday, weakling.  i couldn’t dance bayadere full out to the end.  in between dances i was lying on the floor knocked out and super exhausted.  tapos kanina di ko magawa yung "the ultimate".  practice for evaluation mid-routine palang i was breathing heavy na.  naawa ako sa sarili ko.  hirap pa sa wushu i can’t pace myself, i have to follow the program exactly.  pag sinabing push-ups 50x di puwedeng sabihin ‘what the hell for.’  whereas sa ballet since i’m who i am there, i can mark the steps when i want.  if i decide to stop in the middle of everything, people understand.  i’m indulged.  i think the wushu world is harder to please?  anyway i’d rather wear myself out than come across as maarte and difficult.  so ten reps of routine nonstop?  bring it on. 

even my teaching is affected by my current malaise.  either madali akong mapikon or totally wala akong pakelam.  nakakapagod kasi to have to care about other people. 

just not sure though if i’m supposed to give myself more time or i should start pushing myself to get back into my old routine.  the stupid routine that got me sick in the first place.  shet.  i should change my ringtone.  i am so not wonderwoman. 

Sunday, October 15th, 2006

bakit ang cymbals section sa marching band mga walang hat???

no more eating

Tuesday, October 10th, 2006

grabe the girls in bp are all so superduper thin!!!  and there i was today with the swimmer shoulders, amazon girl kaha, and healthy assets, sticking out like a sore thumb.  because i didn’t get to eat much last night in wai ying (too busy making chika) and i skipped lunch today trying not to be late, i honestly thought i’d be ok.  but no.  i even looked more macho than some of the boys there.  and dressed in my basic ballet pink footed tights, spag-strap leos and black ballet skirt, i looked sooo not like a professional ballerina.  which i’m not anymore naman.  but then again, i’ve always favored the clean, no-frills classical ballet student look.  i mean since when is wearing animal print helpful or necessary for artistic expression? 

felt right at home in teacher noordin’s class though.  very sensible, just as how i remembered it.  not a trace of ‘the teacher is trying to prove something so be ready for absurdly difficult combinations’ vibe.  di naman halata na paminsan nalang ako mag-ballet ngayon.  lecheng eurhist sked kasi na yan o.   

just one thing i noticed, the ccp rehearsal hall looks much smaller than it used to.  or was i just a really small kid back then when i left?

because my unicorn is at it again…

Sunday, October 8th, 2006

ayan sol ginawa ko na ang gusto mo. 

it doesn’t matter if the toktoktok brings me someone else.  mabuti nang distracted kaysa major olats. 

see the mistakes that i’ve made no they don’t seem to bother me and i sure as hell don’t feel like i’ve missed any kind of train if i could only show you how i feel then you wouldn’t bother me and maybe then you’ll see…

Wednesday, October 4th, 2006

"a-ha miss natalo school niyo!" -quincy

ok lang hindi naman ako pikon.  at tuloy pa rin exam niyo next week.  "alright settle down let’s start."  *cheering smile*