question to joelle: so are we on the same level of cute-ness?
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what lucas has to say about my unicorn: aanhin pa ang damo kung patay na ang kabayo?
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retort to kuwags: i do not have long legs. ok? i don’t. do i?
when you’re down and feeling olats count on your new friends, and old friends alike, to cheer you up:
"miss you look pretty today, very nice haircut." - the korean sunshine twins kim and tina
"o jacqui balita? ate fe anong problema nito?" - neil
"ate dahil pinublicize mo na ako masyado kay henson magwuwushu na ako ngayon nang may supot sa ulo na may nakasulat na NEW CLASSMATE" - dianne
ivy, giggling the whole time i was talking to her on my cel, listening to me rant about my stupid life
and just the sight of eurofor A53 making a career out of their exam1a was enough to make me count my blessings after this long and disturbing day. thank you God for the wonderful people who surround me everyday. amen.
johann played ‘i’ll be here awhile’ for me at the dep’t today. ya he is cute i guess, in that mysterious gitarista with the emo hair, bangs covering his eyes kinda way. and just because he "plays a mean guitar" or at least he played and sang some parts of that hanep song with such hanep depth of an emotion, feeling ko pag inask out ako nyan papatulan ko yan. haha mafe is gonna freak! ang feeling ko naman di ako duwag. or tamad. or makapal ang mukha. poor kid, i hope i didn’t or do not terrorize him ever. to be fair all the boys of SHIFT are pogi. just because they’re so game and serious about this whole thing.
ok so songs to learn to play on the guitar we have:
#1 i’ll be here awhile -311
#2 santeria -sublime
#3 hole-hearted -extreme
if you notice that’s easy, moderate and EXTREME!!! neil [diamond] has advised me to stay away from extreme. he said, and may i quote, "wag mo na pangarapin yang mga extreme." aba. pag yan natugtog ko, anong gagawin mo.
jacqui: uy bibili ako ng phone! yung nokia n76.
neil: bilin mo nalang yung saken, n91, 15k lang.
jacqui: flip phone ba yan?
neil: ay hinde, pero maganda! malaki memory, ma-music ka ba? may warranty pa yan, last year ko lang binili.
sir dennis: gusto ata ni jacqui flip. mahilig kasi yan sa flip.
neil: ah mahilig ka ba sa flip? eh hindi ako yon.
–di ka nga flip. feeling ka lang. ahihihi. buti nalang walang friendster si neil–
mahilig ba ko sa flip??
shock of my life. or sige na nga of the day lang. nakasabay ko si contreras sa miguel elevator kahapon. now he probably would remember me as a former student who pissed him off for not caring about an ineffective research problem. hassle naman kasi ang pagka-smart alek niya when i went to see him for consultation. and then he bothers with my work when everything is done and due for submission. i wonder if he still factors that in whenever he signs my faculty contract. i was actually, upto yesterday at least, kampante that he wasn’t connecting the name with the face, and that when the time comes for me to get a promotion he still wouldn’t know that that kid and the faculty under consideration are the same person.
so now i realize i’m in trouble pala. when i smiled at tonton he smiled back and then said ‘hello jacqui’. WAT! then he goes on and asks how long i’ve been teaching and if i was taking my masters and when i was gonna finish tralala. patay tayo diyan. just what i need, another person keeping track. stress.
tuloy-tuloy ang ikot ng mundo, hindi ito hihinto para lang sayo…
- ikot, stonefree
sino bang nagpapaikot ng mundo at paki para lang po at bababa na ako…
- ikot ng mundo, razorback
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couldn’t see how every sign were pointing straight to you…
- broken road, rascal flatts
sayoooooo, lahat nakaturo sayooooooo….
- nakaturo sa’yo, razorback
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baby na sa bahay, baby pa rin sa trabaho. tsk tsk tsk. i remember that time ed was this close (picture me gesturing ‘half an inch’ with my fingers) to calling the scalabrini center and pretending to be some insurance or credit agent coz i didn’t have the balls to call the ‘bullfighter’ myself and check if he got back from his trip ok. yeeees i think that tops my list of funny-slash-pathetic moments.
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why is it that when you’re broke, you think of all these things you need and want to buy, and then when a thick wad of cash suddenly falls on your lap, you turn into the stingiest person in the world. o stingy, alam mo ba yang word na yan? ingles yan. ("inconsiderate. alam niyo ba yon? ingles yon." -daddy, to a lady who parked in front of our car and trapped us in for 30mins)
i feel so betrayed. i was so stupid to miss the fact that the loyalty of these people were with… well definitely not with me. siempre jac. s-i-e-m-p-r-e. i mean sino ba naman ako. just another chick in need of a hobby. now there’s nobody there to defend or protect me. those who have always had something against me are basking in this chance to put me down and keep me there, pathetically for an awful long while.
so why stay? coz i’m not gonna let this loser disrupt my life. kebs if i only have two real friends there. heck i can even brave this on my own. all i have to do is switch to ’stoic’ mode - which is soooo easy and is actually more me - and i’m good to go. wala nang pleasantville friendly-friendly-han. ichura ng mga ‘to.
question is ‘is it all worth it?’
where you are is where i belong i do know where you go is where i wanna be
thaemar pointed out that my unicorn is bound to appear sooner or later because i am once again apparently moving on. and now is actually the best time for his usual ‘hey u out’ line and disturbing ‘gnyt’ bit. as in the best time, out of all those other times that i was thankful for but felt i could handle on my own. but i’m adamantly sinking deeper and deeper into this mess and nobody’s strong enough to pull me out and draw me into the light. so in the immortal words of the doors, the time to hesitate is through. seek out the unicorn. carebear countdown, i shall text him in two days. let’s see what happens.
